I have several things to say. And I'm not cutting it because I want people to read it.
First of all: FUCK THIS IS AN AMAZING PERFORMANCE
It really irritates me that ever since the Issue began people have been all "OMG THEY'RE AREN'T SINGING WELL" AND "THEY'RE NOT ONE" AND "HOMG CRYING FOREVER LOOK AT HOW SAD THEY ARE ALL THE TIME" AND "I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE FML" ETC ETC ETC.
I nodded my head for a bit, because, it makes sense, if you don't think about it.
Well, now I've thought about it and fuck them all.
I love TVXQ. Heart, Mind, and Soul, baby. It's worth all the gripe and weird looks I get from...um, well, everyone. It's worth the sleep I lose so I can catch up on what's going on, worth the hours I spend in front of my computer, worth the money and the heart break and the sorrow.
I refuse to take sides in this. I trust all five of them, and trust that they're doing what they're doing for their own good. Something that I have said from the beginning, is that all I want if for them to be happy and maintain their friendship. Those two things will always be more important than them staying together as a band and singing as five, as much as I would love that.
I really think that singing wise, they're handling this well. Seriously, this performance is beautiful. Their voices are gorgeous, totally in tune, and they actually are blending. It's just your fangirly ears that want to hear the dissonance. I can find several videos of other performances on youtube that house far too many sour notes than is healthy, as much as it saddens me. They weren't dealing with the Issue then. Contrast those to this...yeah.
to let their inner troubles keep me from loving them. Wether they continue on as TVXQ or go their separate ways, I will always hold them in my heart. This TVXQ that's singing, this is the TVXQ that I love: the group that will sound good and look good and perform well for their fans when really, they probably just want to start bashing each other with their microphones.
Yes, they look sad, but that doesn't meant that I have to "jump ship" or stop loving them, or throw my hands up in the air and give up. What kind of fan does that make me? Shit, here comes trouble, I don't want to deal with it, see ya later guys. I'm sure they would really appreciate it.
Anyway. I've had this song on repeat. Yoochun is fantastic. Yunho sounds good. Changmin is divine as usual. Jaejoong doesn't sound like he's forcing his voice, and is just singing beautifully like I know he can, and Junsu...perfect as always.
Do I hope for something better 2010? Yes. But I'm really not a superstitious person. The new year will bring what it will bring, and regardless, I will love TVXQ. Because I'm Cassiopeia and that's what I do.
That's all I can do. For them, and for me.
(This goes for Hangeng and Super Junior, too.)
(Sorry for people who were spammed with this twice because of my RL only journal.)