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miari ([personal profile] miari) wrote2010-02-06 09:53 pm

Because I Can't Stay Away

Because I Can't Stay Away
Yunjae
R; Romance, Smut
It was perfect because it was Yunho.

Jaejoong was sure that Yunho’s mouth on his body was the best sensation in the world. More than chocolate melting on his tongue, or spice burning his mouth, or hot water sluicing down his back. It was something he was sure he’d never forget.

Everything was foggy as Yunho dragged his tongue down Jaejoong’s throat and bit down on his collarbone. A haze of pleasure crowded his senses, breathy sounds puffed into his ear that sent sparks all the way down to his toes and pulled any sort of rational thought from Jaejoong’s mind. More, more, more was what he wanted to say, but he didn’t, not knowing what Yunho planned or wanted besides intense making out and fevered touching.

As Yunho pushed closer and Jaejoong rode up onto his pillow, he found himself desperately wishing that his bed was longer, or rather that they had started this lower (in more ways than one,) so that his skull wouldn’t hit the headboard.

“Y-Yoochun,” Jaejoong hissed into Yunho’s ear, as the leader moaned against Jaejoong’s lips, “Yoochun’s sleeping, be quiet.”

Yunho froze and then laughed low; Jaejoong groaned as he felt it resound where their chests were pressed together, “I thought for a second you were calling his name instead of mine and I was about to be angry.”

“Never,” Jaejoong breathed, laughing breathlessly as they looked over at the other bed and realized that Yoochun had already left, “Never, ever.”

Yunho cradled Jaejoong’s face, kissing him sweetly before it turned a little more passionate, Jaejoong sliding his tongue in between Yunho’s lips and commencing something of a battle for dominance. Yunho only won because he cheated and chose at that moment to grind his hips down against Jaejoong’s.

“Uhn,” Jaejoong let his head fall back as Yunho’s mouth dipped to his throat and his hands slid slowly down Jaejoong’s body, touching, feeling, kneading, finally creeping underneath his shirt, fingers grasping for skin. Jaejoong bit his lip to keep from making noise, and arched up into the touch, needing to feel more; more of Yunho, more of his hands, more of his mouth.

Please,” Jaejoong whispered, not caring that he sounded desperate, not really knowing what he was asking for, “please, Yunho.”

“Tell me,” Yunho murmured over the warm metal glinting in Jaejoong’s belly button, “I love your voice. I could listen to you forever. Talk to me. Tell me what you want.”

“You,” Jaejoong breathed, “your hands, your mouth, your everything. Don’t let go of me. Please don’t, not ever.”

“Never,” Yunho promised, as he nosed the waistband of Jaejoong’s sweats and Jaejoong convulsed, practically shoving Yunho’s head up so he could kick his pants off.

There was a moment of “shit, are we really doing this?” in which they stared at each other, confirming their thoughts and desires as they searched the other’s face.

“Want you,” Jaejoong breathed, drinking in Yunho’s flushed cheeks and his eyes, dark and dilated, tongue wetting his lips in a way that should be illegal.

Yunho leaned in slowly and Jaejoong’s eyes fluttered shut as their lips brushed against one another.

They fumbled a little, awkward giggles ending in senseless stuttering, Jaejoong biting down hard on Yunho’s shoulder as Yunho pushed in, gentle, sweet, not at all how Jaejoong had dreamed. But still perfect.

“Perfect,” Jaejoong said, as Yunho stared down at him.

Perfect even though Yunho’s sweat dripped down on him, perfect even though they didn’t really know what they were doing, perfect even though they tried to kiss but kept missing, perfect even though Jaejoong’s head whacked the wall. Several times.

It was perfect because it was Yunho, perfect because Jaejoong could feel him, touch him, breath him in. It was perfect because it pulled together every touch, every look, every whisper that had been building up and threatening to tear them apart instead of joining them. Right here. Right now. In this moment.

Jaejoong clutched Yunho’s back, his fingernails marking the skin as they found a rhythm that beat against the pounding of their hearts and the murmuring of senseless syllables against each others skin.

And rather than an end, Jaejoong rushed towards a beginning, whispering, enticing, pulling, until they both reached the edge of what was before and spilled over into what was to come. Gasping, shuddering, crying, clutching at each other until their tremors subsided and Yunho lay heavy on Jaejoong, breathing deeply.

“Perfect,” Jaejoong breathed.

“Is that all you can say?” Yunho mumbled into Jaejoong’s neck, “not that I’m disagreeing.”

They laughed, and then Yunho got up for a washcloth and wiped at them both, kissing Jaejoong’s skin as he went, melting Jaejoong further into his state of satisfaction.

The cloth was tossed away and Jaejoong curled up against Yunho and allowed the other man to pat down his damp hair and kiss his nose.

“Love you,” Yunho murmured, and Jaejoong accepted the kiss that was offered, light, careful, reverent.

He didn’t say it back and he knew he didn’t have to. They would talk in the morning. Talk about their feelings and their dreams and Dong Bang Shin Ki and the other members and they would make it work. Somehow.

They always did.

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This was supposed to be part of a bit of law!verse that I started to write tonight, but then I got going and I was like...this doesn't have the same feel as law!verse, so I pulled it out and it now stands alone. And damned if it isn't one of my more favorite things I've ever written.

And I'm still blushing. I cannot believe I actually did this.

[identity profile] megera23.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
First? :D

Yay, smut from you. Wasn't expecting to see one. xD *runs to read*

[identity profile] megera23.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
Sorry for stealing the first place if it was reserved for someone else. xD

Mmm this was... beautiful and romantic and "perfect". :P As JaeJae said. ^^ It really feels a bit different from the law!verse, but I wouldn't mind seeing one for that universe as well. :P (The part with Yoochun was kinda hilarious xD)

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[identity profile] jaejoongxyuno07.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
this was so cute!
I loved it!

Lol @ Ho thinking Jae was moaning Yoochun

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[identity profile] aniprincess-13.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 04:29 am (UTC)(link)
I should really ask you to give me a spot whenever you write YunJae XD Shall read after errands :D :D :D

[identity profile] aniprincess-13.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 01:46 pm (UTC)(link)
OMG YOU WROTE SMUT O.O Not explicit... but ITS MORE THAN THE FEW WORDS OF GASPS AND MAKE OUT SESSIONS THAT TEASES MY BRAIN TO INSANITY OMG IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!

Actually it would've passed as a part of law!verse... it kinda disappeared when I was at the part shit, are we really doing this?.. Its fine :D :D :D I love law!verse as it is and I love this as a stand alone :D I'm not used to you writing something short though lol No matter.. Still love it :D :D :D

I just love how you make them love each other... no matter in what I'm reading... It just makes me want what they have so much and makes me believe.. even just a little bit... that it is possible for love like this to exist... You make me believe dear... that's why I can't get enough of law verse :P I think I've read the whole series like 4 times already lol.. And I'm getting out of topic so I'll shut up now lol *glomps you*

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[identity profile] peaches00a.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
Yunjae smut and with declaration of love is always win <3333333

Yoochun? O_O hehehe

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 05:31 pm (UTC)(link)
yes yes yes :)

Must always include Yoochun lol. I love him too much not to...

[identity profile] mini2ujsu.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
Hot and sexy and you're right its 'perfect' xxx

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 05:33 pm (UTC)(link)
thank you^^

[identity profile] iaminlalaland.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
beautifully written, it doesn't have to be explicitly graphic for us to get the picture, but the picture is vivid, and the feelings so overwhelming. You are right, I wasn't lost in the law!verse when I read one of those, it has a hint of reality in it, though I wish they can have such times together now.

He didn’t say it back and he knew he didn’t have to. They would talk in the morning. Talk about their feelings and their dreams and Dong Bang Shin Ki and the other members and they would make it work. Somehow.
Just my absolute favorite end to a beautifully written piece, they came to an understanding of each other so that their touch can convey their feelings and just because something wasn't said doesn't mean he didn't feel the same way. There is love for each other, and they both know it, talking about it can only reaffirm what is already there.

Reality is so harsh right now for all of them, even if it's not romantically love between them, I feel sad that such close friendships are being put to the test. I wish the best for these boys, they are so genuinely talented and loving to each other that it would be a shame for a sorry excuse of a nam name LSM to come in between.

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 05:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Omg, such a nice comment :)

Oh, I imagine that they do have such times together. It was weird to write a short piece, but I liked how it was and it felt too real to be part of an AU, which is how those last few sentences ended up at the end, there. And it seemed to go well with the drama irl, even though I didn't specifically state when this was.

And you're right, romanticism aside, their friendships are just so beautiful. I really just hope they remain friends, regardless of any sort of outcome for all this.

[identity profile] am3thyst.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
Wow, this is very well written! The smut was hot yet still very tasteful (a hard balance to strike, really), and I like how you mentioned that it wasn't perfect b/c they didn't really know what they were doing, yet it was perfect b/c it was *them* together.

“I thought for a second you were calling his name instead of mine and I was about to be angry.”
I thought the same, too and thought 'oh no, Jaejoong, you're dead!' XD

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you :) :) :) I would imagine this is how it is between any two people in love. Weird because really, you don't know what you're doing the first time, but because you love each other, it's perfect.

Ha, well. When it was law!verse it was actually Changmin, originally. And this was all supposed to be Jaejoong dreaming. But then it became too real which is why I pulled it out.

[identity profile] srijoni-rhea.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 07:23 am (UTC)(link)
wuhhh ;_____; good. /incoherent. but good. wuhhhhhhhh.

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
well thank you :)

[identity profile] ika-suka-yunjae.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
sweet smut!! love it!!X3

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
thank you!

[identity profile] dreamerswings42.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
Amazingly written!

I felt breathless too!

Thanks for sharing!

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 05:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you and you're welcome lol :)

[identity profile] steorie.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 08:20 am (UTC)(link)
"It was perfect because it was Yunho, perfect because Jaejoong could feel him, touch him, breath him in." This was so beautyful and well written. :3

It was sweet yet smexy at the same time. Keep up the great work. ^^

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much!!!!!!! Sweet and sexy is the way to go, imo.

[identity profile] calvincakes.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 10:15 am (UTC)(link)
This is so beautiful. I absolutely love the last few sentences. ♥

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you^^

(Your icon is lovely.)
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[personal profile] haru_ran 2010-02-07 10:16 am (UTC)(link)
*hahaha* I liked the part with Yoochun. xDDD
Damn funny. xPP

Ah~ such a sweet lovemaking ..... I guess it was their first. >//////< &hearts

Just so damn lovely~&hearts *waves YunJae-flag*

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Originally it was Changmin, when it was still part of law!verse. But then I switched it. :)

So glad you liked it <3

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[identity profile] yun-jae-luv.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 10:48 am (UTC)(link)
oh my..that was so lovely. their first time. :)

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Glad you liked <3
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[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
That's all you need to!!! Thank you :)

[identity profile] ara-niey.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 01:46 pm (UTC)(link)
i love it!<33333333

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
YAY!!! :)

[identity profile] museelo.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 01:46 pm (UTC)(link)

He didn’t say it back and he knew he didn’t have to. They would talk in the morning. Talk about their feelings and their dreams and Dong Bang Shin Ki and the other members and they would make it work.
So cute this sentence <3

Thanks for sharing =)

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 06:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you <3

[identity profile] one-nee.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 02:06 pm (UTC)(link)
oohh... and its perfect, because its yunjae =)

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-07 06:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Precisely. <3

[identity profile] nyappynaitomea.livejournal.com 2010-02-08 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
That was so beautifully written. I really loved it! ^-^ Great job!

Please keep writing!!<33

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-08 05:18 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much!

I intend to; hopefully I'll get better and better lol

[identity profile] cute-chan.livejournal.com 2010-02-08 09:07 am (UTC)(link)
aww how sweet and romantic was that? hehehhe

i was shocked at first when i saw yoochun's name heheheh

loved it ^^ keep on the great work~

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-08 06:07 pm (UTC)(link)
lol, Yoochun always shows up somewhere... :)

<3

[identity profile] chloe1910.livejournal.com 2010-02-08 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
hehehe...I like this very, very much...it's really sweetly hot..

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-08 06:22 pm (UTC)(link)
:) Thank you

Sweet is the way to go, for sure. Esp. nowadays...

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[identity profile] dbskhwaiting.livejournal.com 2010-02-17 05:05 pm (UTC)(link)
aw, you write so beautifully~ they seem so happy and content ^^

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-17 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
thank you :) i would like to think that they are happy and content even outside my perverted fangirl brain :)

[identity profile] r-1353.livejournal.com 2010-02-27 04:51 am (UTC)(link)
yosh!!
this is just--perfect! hahahaha

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-02-27 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)
thank you^^

[identity profile] julili.livejournal.com 2010-03-09 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
YunJae poetry!
So good.... u leave me unable to say words!

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-03-19 10:58 pm (UTC)(link)
adfjdlsk sorry i didn't reply before :( :( my life is so hectic. thank you for comment and i'm sooooo glad that you liked it!!!

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[identity profile] jaeismine.livejournal.com 2010-04-30 03:12 pm (UTC)(link)
nice~ love it...
n yeah i almost thinking jae moaned yoochun...
lol
silly jaejoong
make more

[identity profile] mearii87.livejournal.com 2010-07-13 02:14 am (UTC)(link)
omg, i totally missed this, I'm so sorry :( :(

Thank you for the comment, I'm glad you liked it!

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