rambling

[miari]

I've always maintained that I don't have a favorite in TVXQ.  I thought for a little bit that it was Jaejoong, but the more I got into them, the more I realized that I just honestly do not have a favorite. I love each of them equally for their own, individual strengths. And weaknesses.

I think for me, that's why this is hitting so hard. Granted, I'm in a tough life period, adjusting to the real world after college, trying to balance life and fandom, working out my faith, etc., and having all this turmoil in something that was bringing me so much peace of mind is pretty much the suckiest thing ever.

I'm so happy for JCS because they're obviously pleased and it's something that they want to do, so yay for them, and the pieces of my heart that hold them are rejoicing. Th parts that hold Homin are breaking, however, because obviously Changmin's pissed as all hell, and, I don't blame him at all, and I'm sure Yunho's aching inside even though he was courteous.

Idk. You're all prolly like, well, duh. Obviously that's how we all feel, why are you just realizing it now?

Anyway.

Bottom line is, I'm happy, I'm sad, I really want them to sing together, but I want them to be happy with each other first. My needs are nothing and not important in comparison.  This isn't going to stop me from loving them or appreciating what they've accomplished. I'm still wearing my TVXQ sweatshirt with pride, I will still love the color red, I will continue to have this awesomeness as my wallpaper and I imagine that I won't be taking it down anytime soon, and I will still identify myself as an unofficial member of Cassiopeia.

And I refuse to stop hoping that I will hear the five of them sing together again. Soon.

So there.

On a side note, I figured out what the hell I was doing wrong with the css, and now I have my pretty header up and it looks beautiful.

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Ever since I got over the initial annoyance/depression of their issues, I decided that as long as their brothers... as long as they're still friends.. I'll be fine with it. I will miss them singing together... I already do. But there are just some things that we can't control... and this would be one of them. They're doing what they can under the circumstances and I'm thankful for that. I'll still love them no matter what. As an individual performer, actor or whatnot. I'll still love them as TVXQ and as each individual. I have my favorite. I actually have a ranking XP. But I love them all, there's not doubt about that.

And I like your current layout :p It's clean XD