rambling

[miari]

I've always maintained that I don't have a favorite in TVXQ.  I thought for a little bit that it was Jaejoong, but the more I got into them, the more I realized that I just honestly do not have a favorite. I love each of them equally for their own, individual strengths. And weaknesses.

I think for me, that's why this is hitting so hard. Granted, I'm in a tough life period, adjusting to the real world after college, trying to balance life and fandom, working out my faith, etc., and having all this turmoil in something that was bringing me so much peace of mind is pretty much the suckiest thing ever.

I'm so happy for JCS because they're obviously pleased and it's something that they want to do, so yay for them, and the pieces of my heart that hold them are rejoicing. Th parts that hold Homin are breaking, however, because obviously Changmin's pissed as all hell, and, I don't blame him at all, and I'm sure Yunho's aching inside even though he was courteous.

Idk. You're all prolly like, well, duh. Obviously that's how we all feel, why are you just realizing it now?

Anyway.

Bottom line is, I'm happy, I'm sad, I really want them to sing together, but I want them to be happy with each other first. My needs are nothing and not important in comparison.  This isn't going to stop me from loving them or appreciating what they've accomplished. I'm still wearing my TVXQ sweatshirt with pride, I will still love the color red, I will continue to have this awesomeness as my wallpaper and I imagine that I won't be taking it down anytime soon, and I will still identify myself as an unofficial member of Cassiopeia.

And I refuse to stop hoping that I will hear the five of them sing together again. Soon.

So there.

On a side note, I figured out what the hell I was doing wrong with the css, and now I have my pretty header up and it looks beautiful.

Comments

[fallen-reya.livejournal.com]

hey, i totally agree with you! who are we to criticize or to judge them? it's written in humans' genes to long for what makes them feel better... if they reach out to attain that state is their decision regardless of what others may think or want... in the end they're also regular people and we don't own them (even if some of their fans believe so)

i truly love max matsuura for doing his best to keep the door open for a comeback but if this doesn't happen we should hold any of them responsible... we don't have that right

thanks for your rant and i hope there are other fans that think like you bb *gives you luv*

[aniprincess-13.livejournal.com]

Ever since I got over the initial annoyance/depression of their issues, I decided that as long as their brothers... as long as they're still friends.. I'll be fine with it. I will miss them singing together... I already do. But there are just some things that we can't control... and this would be one of them. They're doing what they can under the circumstances and I'm thankful for that. I'll still love them no matter what. As an individual performer, actor or whatnot. I'll still love them as TVXQ and as each individual. I have my favorite. I actually have a ranking XP. But I love them all, there's not doubt about that.

And I like your current layout :p It's clean XD

[keigomilk.livejournal.com]

i honestly dunno how to and what to feel ...
i mean i dun deny i am angry @ the 3 ,
but somewhere in there,
i know that i obviously have no right to be.
and being a Yunho supporter made the fact even harder to accept...

seeing how easily and happy other fans are ,
i can't help but ask myself ,
why can i be happy for them ?
and my only ans is i loved them as 5 ,
and i can love them individually ,
but i find it difficult to love them when they are broken into 2 groups and when they keep telling us to give them more time and to always keep the faith ...

i guess i am still hurting too much to think logically ,
and perhaps this really spells the end of my fan-girl lifestyle,
but i guess for now ,
only time can tell ....

and i have decided to not harbour any hopes of seeing them back as 5 again , coz i know if that does not happen , i am only giving myself another chance of getting my already fragile heart broken.

[senseikk.livejournal.com]

Like you, I don't really have a favorite in dbsk. Yunho was my initial bias, but in the end, I fell for all 5 of them. And I fell hard. It hurts to see them divided into these two groups right now, but because I love each individual so freakin' much, I doesn't matter to me anymore. I'm mature enough to not be stubborn and demand things to go a certain way just for my selfish fangirl fantasies. If they're better off like this, let it be. If they're happy I'm happy.

I think my acceptance of the situation has to do with my trust in them. I love them, and I trust that they know what they are doing. No matter how much they maybe divided now, there is no doubt in my mind that there was once love between them. Even if momentarily, it was beautiful.

So yea in summary I'm bummed out. However, I'm hopeful b/c this isn't the end. I'm always keeping the faith. It may be for their reunion and it may just be faith in them in general. Even though it has been a bittersweet ride, it's not stopping me from looking forward.

(sorry my own rant is in journal.. ^^"""" May we all feel better soon!)

[lizzy-black.livejournal.com]

couldn't said it better!! go TVXQ fandom!!

[kiava-xxx.livejournal.com]

Jeez, for a moment there I thought I was reading my own diary. I feel the exactly same way, word for word. (even the part about Jae xD) Except that I'm kind of sad that JCS are forming new unit. It will be kind of awkward and just not right to see only the 3 of them on stage, don't you think? :/
Anyway. After I saw the pics of Min and Yunho at the airport today I really thought I could go out and kill somebody. >.< Changmin's expression seriously made me want to go and kick the daylights out of whoever pissed him off. And it worried me.
It's weird that we should feel that way, given the fact that we don't even know the boys in person. Yet, we do, we are happy when they are, we share their anxiousness when they have problems and that's what makes as fans, Cassies, official or not (I'm not official eather ^^') That's what makes us one huge, illegal family. That "always keeps the faith". (;

PS. Led by the very same feelings I wrote my very first post in my LJ acc, I'd be glad if you read it. ^^'

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