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ngl, my heart kind of aches rn.

I can't believe they're footing the bill for the concerts all by themselves. I can't. They are amazing. I will stan them forever and I cannot wait to see them tomorrow. Will post fan account and pictures. THEY'RE ALLOWING CAMERAS!!!

I'm so obvious and predictable but IDGAF.

JAEJOONG WENT TO SEE GOONG.

/weeps forever. 

I love my otp. I love them. 




GAIZ.




HE WENT TO SEE YUNHO.





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I will never be over them.



EDIT: Okay, so it's a fan account and it's all very suspicious but I'M CHOOSING TO BELIEVE. D:

DBSK in a nutshell:

brb being nostalgic and sad

The first part is pretty but the important part starts at 2:08. 

I don't know. The bit about walking with the "stars" as guides really got to me. Also, "all I've done, just to be with you" Idk.

Dispatch is <3. This is one of my fav songs ever.

I've always maintained that I don't have a favorite in TVXQ.  I thought for a little bit that it was Jaejoong, but the more I got into them, the more I realized that I just honestly do not have a favorite. I love each of them equally for their own, individual strengths. And weaknesses.

I think for me, that's why this is hitting so hard. Granted, I'm in a tough life period, adjusting to the real world after college, trying to balance life and fandom, working out my faith, etc., and having all this turmoil in something that was bringing me so much peace of mind is pretty much the suckiest thing ever.

I'm so happy for JCS because they're obviously pleased and it's something that they want to do, so yay for them, and the pieces of my heart that hold them are rejoicing. Th parts that hold Homin are breaking, however, because obviously Changmin's pissed as all hell, and, I don't blame him at all, and I'm sure Yunho's aching inside even though he was courteous.

Idk. You're all prolly like, well, duh. Obviously that's how we all feel, why are you just realizing it now?

Anyway.

Bottom line is, I'm happy, I'm sad, I really want them to sing together, but I want them to be happy with each other first. My needs are nothing and not important in comparison.  This isn't going to stop me from loving them or appreciating what they've accomplished. I'm still wearing my TVXQ sweatshirt with pride, I will still love the color red, I will continue to have this awesomeness as my wallpaper and I imagine that I won't be taking it down anytime soon, and I will still identify myself as an unofficial member of Cassiopeia.

And I refuse to stop hoping that I will hear the five of them sing together again. Soon.

So there.

On a side note, I figured out what the hell I was doing wrong with the css, and now I have my pretty header up and it looks beautiful.

I have several things to say. And I'm not cutting it because I want people to read it.

First of all: FUCK THIS IS AN AMAZING PERFORMANCE

It really irritates me that ever since the Issue began people have been all "OMG THEY'RE AREN'T SINGING WELL" AND "THEY'RE NOT ONE" AND "HOMG CRYING FOREVER LOOK AT HOW SAD THEY ARE ALL THE TIME" AND "I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE FML" ETC ETC ETC.

I nodded my head for a bit, because, it makes sense, if you don't think about it.

Well, now I've thought about it and fuck them all. 

I love TVXQ.  Heart, Mind, and Soul, baby.  It's worth all the gripe and weird looks I get from...um, well, everyone.  It's worth the sleep I lose so I can catch up on what's going on, worth the hours I spend in front of my computer, worth the money and the heart break and the sorrow.

I refuse to take sides in this.  I trust all five of them, and trust that they're doing what they're doing for their own good. Something that I have said from the beginning, is that all I want if for them to be happy and maintain their friendship. Those two things will always be more important than them staying together as a band and singing as five, as much as I would love that.

I really think that singing wise, they're handling this well.  Seriously, this performance is beautiful.  Their voices are gorgeous, totally in tune, and they actually are blending.  It's just your fangirly ears that want to hear the dissonance. I can find several videos of other performances on youtube that house far too many sour notes than is healthy, as much as it saddens me.  They weren't dealing with the Issue then.  Contrast those to this...yeah.

I REFUSE to let their inner troubles keep me from loving them. Wether they continue on as TVXQ or go their separate ways, I will always hold them in my heart.  This TVXQ that's singing, this is the TVXQ that I love: the group that will sound good and look good and perform well for their fans when really, they probably just want to start bashing each other with their microphones.

Yes, they look sad, but that doesn't meant that I have to "jump ship" or stop loving them, or throw my hands up in the air and give up.  What kind of fan does that make me? Shit, here comes trouble, I don't want to deal with it, see ya later guys.  I'm sure they would really appreciate it.

Anyway.  I've had this song on repeat.  Yoochun is fantastic.  Yunho sounds good. Changmin is divine as usual. Jaejoong doesn't sound like he's forcing his voice, and is just singing beautifully like I know he can, and Junsu...perfect as always. 

Do I hope for something better 2010? Yes.  But I'm really not a superstitious person.  The new year will bring what it will bring, and regardless, I will love TVXQ.  Because I'm Cassiopeia and that's what I do.

That's all I can do.  For them, and for me.

(This goes for Hangeng and Super Junior, too.)

(Sorry for people who were spammed with this twice because of my RL only journal.)

♥

Title: The Art of De-Stressing 1
Rating: R (To be safe.  Just because Jaejoong had to witness some Yoosu action. Lucky bastard.)
Pairing: Yoosu/Yunjae
Genre: Humor
Summary: Continuation in the law!dbsk universe.  Post finals, everyone tries to relax. Changmin, however, makes matters worse when he invites a certain individual over for dinner...

 

( No! NOT. ON. MY. BED. YOU. PERVES! )